I feel horrible right now……….I made a promise to go see my girlfriend today, and I could not keep my promise, I feel like horrible, I feel like the lowest scum on the earth…..My account was apparently frozen for 24 hrs and could not afford my ticket……..this is the worst day possible…..
Saw this video and got teary eyed….I thought about how i leave my girl and we skype every night, and fall asleep with each other, I break down and cry knowing I’m away from her, I want her to know that, every time I come home to see her, and then I have to leave, this is what I am feeling (Minus the death part) but baby, this song is for us, I know you feel the same way every time I am home then I have to leave or whenever we are on skype or the phone and I have to leave for work or class or something. I just want you to know, that I’m in love with you and you mean everything to me, You’re MY WORLD. I Love You Melissa Mandac (Parker) :)
Trey Songz - Yo Side Of The Bed (Video) (by TreySongzVideos)
This song is for you baby, I love you
Usher - BedTime (by jwalkerjessie)
I just feel like complete shit, like the worst kind of shit imaginable……..never thought I could feel this bad/low……WTF………I am soo fucking stupid……I do not know what I can do to make it up to you……..
Once again, I fucked up………the things in the past I did not do, that I do now I am truly sorry I did not do it then, but what I can promise you is that, I will be here for you always, no matter what. I apologize for my mistakes and promise you that they will not happen again. I Love You <3
I know its only temporary, but why does this hurt so bad right now……..in the past, I have been able to deal with this, but now, I feel like, like I just got locked outside of heaven’s gate, and I can see everyone I love, happy and merry. I know its only temporary, but now I feel like I am at a “low” in my life now. I know its only temporary, but I wish you would have never said what you have told me last night. I know its only temporary, but I wish you never felt like that in the first place. I know its only temporary, but it is hard for me to accept this. I know its only temporary, but I hope you understand that, I love talking and writing, but now I have nothing to say and nothing to write, its like I am speechless or I have writers block. I know its only temporary, but I feel like I my wings have been taken from me, but still, at the end of the day, I can still say that I am in love with you, and I will do anything for you to be happy. I love you.
Had a great 6 month Anniversary with Melissa Mandac, im glad she had a great time, most enjoyment was watching her face light up when i gave her present to her. I am so happy, Lucky, Grateful and Thankful to be blessed to have her in my life.
